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Maggie Lesbian 45 - Former member of CLCI and AOG Movements

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Myfanwe
 
Joined in 2007
July 18, 2007, 13:22

I grew up in Victoria and I was raised by a bitter ex-catholic mother, and a somewhat laidback protestant father until 1972 when my parents divorced.


It was in Victoria in 1979 that I was ‘born again’ during the ‘revival.’ I moved to Brisbane shortly after that, and was a member of CLC Brisbane up until a couple of years after the church moved to New Farm.


Through all that time, I knew that I was homosexual, but I chose to marry, have children, and try to “overcome” that part of my nature.


Naturally, the marriage didn’t work out, but I gave it my best for 23 years. I have three wonderful children (all grown up now) as a result of that marriage, and I wouldn’t trade them for anything.


In 2005 I decided to leave my marriage and try to sort myself out. I had more or less given up on Church by then. I still had an occasional fling with this or that AOG church, but the restlessness in my spirit proved too much for me to really settle again in any church.


At the end of 2005, I met Sandra who is my partner today and whom I love very deeply. We held a commitment ceremony in November 2006. She is my first same sex partner and I hope will be my last as well.


I stumbled across a link to Anthony’s website one night a few months ago, and I am so glad I did. It seems like one of those things we would call a divine appointment in my old Church circles.


A couple of weeks ago, I was again hanging out at Anthony’s site, wondering if I should make contact, and I happened to click on a lnk to some youtube videos. I watched the 2007 launch of Anthony’s book and something I saw there, touched me so deeply and went so much to my heart, that I broke down and sobbed my heart out for an hour.


It was the speech given by Peter.


I was a member of the church that Peter was a pastor at in Brisbane. I knew Peter, and listened to him preach many times during that time.


My heart broke for his struggle and for mine and I found myself crying out to know why the church perpetuates the secrecy and lies that have put us all through so much heartache? At the same time, those tears were ones of healing as I came to realise that even though I might have felt I was alone back then, I wasn’t.


This brief outline is just scraping the surface of my struggles over the years, but it is enough of an overview for people to know a little bit more about me. As is the nature of humanity, we will all probably learn more through interaction.


I’m glad to be here.


Maggie



magsdee
Disabled
Joined in 2006
July 18, 2007, 15:32

Welcome to Freedom2B Maggie….. good to see another Maggie wink So glad you found the site and shared your wonderful story. D



Myfanwe
 
Joined in 2007
July 18, 2007, 15:55

Welcome to Freedom2B Maggie….. good to see another Maggie 😉 So glad you found the site and shared your wonderful story. 😀


Thanks for the welcome. I’m very glad to be here.



Linda
Chapter Leader
Joined in 2006
July 18, 2007, 20:55

Wow Maggie, so glad you posted!. Yes I too tried to live the straight life that I thought God wanted for me, getting married and having kids, but i only lasted 12 years, soooooooo glad to see you are in a loving relationship and you sound very content!! I too have meet the love of my life! its hard to explain the joy I now truly feel and live in!!!!



Myfanwe
 
Joined in 2007
July 18, 2007, 21:24

Wow Maggie, so glad you posted!. Yes I too tried to live the straight life that I thought God wanted for me, getting married and having kids, but i only lasted 12 years, soooooooo glad to see you are in a loving relationship and you sound very content!! I too have meet the love of my life! its hard to explain the joy I now truly feel and live in!!!!


Hi Linny,


I am very pleased to ‘meet’ you. I am happy and contented with my life where it now stands. I know that God loves me and accepts me just as I am. I have a loving partner, wonderful, loving children and the acceptance of my family and friends.


Life’s Good. (LG:)


Meg



Linda
Chapter Leader
Joined in 2006
July 19, 2007, 19:19

Maggie, to bad you guys dont live in Melbourne or we dont live in the land of Sunshine ( I wish!!). I think we would make interesting conversation. !!!

we can always write to each other via the pm (private mail).

I do feel very happy for your current situation!!! The depression or oppression once felt fades by the minute!



Myfanwe
 
Joined in 2007
July 19, 2007, 21:27

Maggie, to bad you guys dont live in Melbourne or we dont live in the land of Sunshine ( I wish!!). I think we would make interesting conversation. !!!

we can always write to each other via the pm (private mail).

I do feel very happy for your current situation!!! The depression or oppression once felt fades by the minute!


I actually grew up in Geelong, Linny, and then went to New Zealand for a while when my parents split, but made my home in Queensland in my teens.


I’d love to exchange emails if you want to. 🙂


Maggie



Anthony Venn-Brown
 
Joined in 2005
July 26, 2007, 00:16

welcome welcome welcome Maggie…….i’m so glad you’ve connected with us……hope you just love being here like the rest of us. I think you’ve already discovered we are not a bad bunch……always supportive…occasionally heated….but hey…….iron sharpens iron


its a great space. I’m sure you will add much…..and hope you find it a place to recieve as well.



matt
 
Joined in 2007
August 7, 2007, 13:49

I’m glad to see you have opened up to the world, as I was a member thinking I could change my sexuality in the AOG church. And now I realise I was living a formal lie, knowing that God was pretty much their for me. But finding out that God loves me unconditionaly, with the fact that I am Gay now. I might I thought I was Bi -Sexual once, but this is who I am now. dear maggie



Anthony Venn-Brown
 
Joined in 2005
August 7, 2007, 17:18

matt….I think that for many of us gay men bisexuality is a safe place for us on our journey to accepting our gay self. its the first step towards total self acceptance and out of denial.


its different for the ladies though. Bisexuality is more common and also womens sexuality more fluid.


its incredibly liberating isn’t it to finally be honest with ourselves, God (as if God needed us to be honest) and others.


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