I too was thinking of miss.muppet at the last meeting. I even read your post in this thread the next day, but I couldn't find the words to form a reply. It was all so raw, and it still is.
Thanks, firstly, for representing Freedom2B at her funeral. She would have loved that. I regret not being able to travel myself, though I'm glad I was able to send prayers and messages of support through her sister. I came with miss.muppet to one of the F2B dinners late last year, and I think she introduced me to you. I had met her through a smaller LGBT ministry, and she then introduced me to her beloved F2B.
She was the first friend I had met in many years with whom I felt wholly comfortable and could be openly honest. It was a privilege to be able to pray with her, be it over the phone, when we were out and about, or by her hospital bed. The last email she sent me — from her hospital bed — ended with "[Thinking] of u [in] prayer also. Xo." It astounded and touched me that was thinking of me amidst her own pain, but that was the beautiful soul I came to know. "I feel the Lord's comfort as we speak", she had recently texted, and I will be forever grateful that God brought her into my life. I kept telling her how cute and adorable and lovely she was in person, but her heart reminded me of Jesus. This is the angel I will always remember.
We each had our hurts and struggles, and we were really helping each other in our recovery. For a while, her passing made it feel like I had to start rebuilding all over again. Now I'm slowly starting to pick myself up. My thoughts and prayers are still with her family and friends like yourself, Ammi.
"Blessed are those who mourn, for [we] shall be comforted."