hey Shan…..good to meet you too.

I really dont want to overload you with too much info ATM……I think you have enough on your plate……… but this is a link about former Exodus leaders in Australia who said it was wrong to believe that people could change and it caused great suffering to those who went through the programs. http://alifeofunlearning.blogspot.com/2007/08/five-of-australias-ex-gay-leaders.html

you only need to read this if

1. you want more info yourself


2. you need to settle the question in your own mind….or


3. it would help your Mum to have more information.

Hi Shan,

Falling asleep on a Macbook is one thing, but falling asleep on a Pro, you must have been exhausted!

I really enjoyed chatting on Facebook last night. I probably got more out of it than you did. You are a really awesome person. And I got blessed listening to the messages from Pastor Sandy Turnbull’s podcast again (http://www.glorytabernacle.com) and Purple Grass by Freda Smith. I cried (but I always cry, haha).

I often get busy with work, but I hope we can chat again. It seems to me that God is sending you encouraging messages through many of us. God’s voice always lifts the human personality out of hopelessness and despair into a place of dignity, strength and hope. God always lifts us up, and takes us higher. Cause we’re God’s kids. And we belong at the table. Have a great week and refreshing sleep.

Timothy

Rivers: Oh I know! The aluminium and glass is just sooooo comfortable… 😛 Come to think of it I have fell asleep on top of it numerous times…

No. It was wonderful… Really was. So many resources… Amazing… Really amazing.

Love to chat again 🙂

Axiom: Yeah… Those coincidences just keep coming. Its amazing how much the internet can connect people 😉

Well..

Ben and Anthony are probably sick of me saying this but I am gunna say it again…

It has been an amazing month.

I am at the point where I KNOW God loves me for who I am. Having made me EXACTLY who I am… I am not happy about being gay (which I actually said out loud today 😀 ) but I am not depressed over it. Just very neutral about the whole thing. But I am now comfortable with this…

I have been speaking to Mom regularly and she sounds… different… Which is to be expected She is still more than happy to hold a conversation with me and still says “I love you” at the end of the phone call, which makes me feel that she is going to be ok…

I was in the city today… Met up with our ex-product specialist… She knows I have been having issues… She randomly said to me “Is this all about your sexuality?”. I was absolutely dumbfounded and just said “Yeah. Did you know”… She didn’t. It was a wild guess lol. Amazing person… So glad I still know her 🙂

I met up with Ben and Anthony again today. You guys are awesome…

Had a chat to Anthony and discussed that being in the closet is a lot like being in an interrogation room with a one way mirror… Looking into the mirror when you are in the interrogation room is a lot like being in the closet… You can only see your own issues. You can’t see past it. As far as you are concerned there is nothing else.

As soon as you come out and look through the observation room side, you know exactly what the people in the interrogation room are going through.

Someone told me that they knew what I was going through. No. They are straight. There is NO way you can know what the continuous internal struggle is like.

Anyhoo… As I mentioned to Ben… I am smiling. But it is no longer that horrible eternally happy facade. It is reflecting exactly what I feel inside =)

This adventure has introduced me to some wonderful friends… And that is exactly what I am calling this… An adventure.

Looking forward to the Freedom 2 b[e] youth event =D

Shan =)

Thank you for reminding me!

Totally forgot…

Sending it to the printer now… Oh how much I do love Back To My Mac heheheh