I’m 29 and it’s taken me the last 10 years to accept myself and find a relationship with God again.
I was born into a very strict pentecostal family. We went to church every week and my father was a preacher there. He had (and still has) very strict views on gay people and I clearly remember being about 10 or 11 and him saying that “God hates gay people. What they do is wrong”
Imagine my shock when I finally worked out what was “wrong” with me. I was 19 and diagnosed with depression. Everthing was going down hill and nothing I did seemed to make it better. I fasted, I prayed like crazy and even had people casting demons out of me…..but nothing seemed to work.
I sat down with a lovely counsellor from the church and told her what was happening. I felt like my whole life was out of control and to make matters worse, I had feelings for other girls in the church! I will never forget that night when she turned to me and said “Honey, I think you’re gay” I recall saying “Oh no, noth that” and she said quietly, “You know what? That’s okay”
It was the words I needed to hear. I had thought for a long time and feared for an even longer time I might be a lesbian….but finally when someone said it and I heard those words it was like a burden being lifted off me.
I still made the decision to leave the church – and I had nothing to do with any kind of religion or God for the last 10 years. I went on living life as a single person until I met my partner. I finally had to sit down and say to my family “I’m gay”. They took it as well as I expected. But you know what? I’m gay and that’s who I am.
I stumbled upon this site by chance and I have been moved by the stories on here. It has also prompted me to make a long overdue re-connection with my faith.
Thanks to Freedom 2 e I’m regaining a relationship with God I never thought possible. 😆