heya Ben…

if you’re thinking bout coming to the friday night catch ups then you definately should. they’re great for so many reasons. good times.

Hey,

Thanks again all for your encouragements and warm comments. Definitely making a difference!!

My parents are both Christians. My Dad is a more liberal and recently converted Christian and my Mum has been a Christian for as long as I remember but she is very conservative. I don’t know how they’ll react to be honest. I’m hoping for the best but expecting the worst. Mum knows that things have been hard for me for a while and she constantly tells me that no matter what she will always love me. That is a positive sign but I doubt she knows that I am gay.

My Dad would probably blame himself which is why I am a little scared to tell him. I am his only son and the possibility that he might blame himself is almost too hard to think about. I’ll have to make sure that I constantly re-assure him that this is not his fault. We have never been close and I am scared that this will tear us further apart.

My sister is a very old school fundamental Christian. She is amazing but at the same time after my cousin announced she was gay (only a few months ago) I’ve heard my sister constantly recount how homosexuality comes out of ‘brokenness’ and how it is not acceptable. It’s strange and I can totally understand as this is how I used to think. Maybe I can show her the truth and what it means to be a Gay Christian.

I fully believe that if I speak out of a position of confidence, humility and respect that my family and friends will take it better. I am also excited that they’ll get to see the real me for once. 😀

These next few weeks and months will be difficult but I will not back down. God is by my side standing with me for truth and justice, walking each and every step with me. Teaching me new things, blessing me with compassion and helping me unlearn many things. Jesus is my guide, my strength, my rock. The God that I had once blamed for all of this has always been my liberator and my refuge. I just took longer to see Him for who He really is.

After praying many years that he would change my sexuality and wondering why he didn’t answer. I know that it was not because he didn’t care but rather he loved me for who I was. “How can I change you if you are beautiful just the way you are”. I am fearfully and wondefully made by the Creator and Saviour of the universe as are all of you. 😀

Ben.

wow. agree with orfeo… amazing words! im encouraged.

its good to be prepared Ben. One way you can do that with parents is that you can you referral networks ready if you need them.

One of those for your parents is PFLAG. http://www.pflagaustralia.org.au/ Have you heard of them.

I dont mean you come out and tell MUM and DAD……and then say…..here is a support group…..you SHOULD go.

Hehe…….that wont work.

I just mean its good to have these things when you need them. Get my drift?

Sounds like the hillsong church is the place to meet hot guys ( winks at luke ) haha apparently the F2b meetings aren’t. hey ben i so agree with you!!! being gay is hard but its worth it . God loves us no matter what and you should never doubt that cause to me every relationship has flaws without these flaws there would be no such thing as a great relationship