Not sure if I'm actually lost in the chasm or just dwelling inbetween & looking on. Last year I moved next door to friends of mine, a lesbian couple. Being single & questioning many things about my faith & sexuality…I let my hair down a bit & relaxed with them.

I was still struggling inside & in my trust of them I shared the struggle. After that was constant pressure to just "make peace!" Made a huge mistake, after being pushing hard one day…I asked her to leave my house.

Regretted that immediately & have been apologizing for a few months now. I never meant to push them out of my life. It was a spare of the moment statement & they aren't forgiving me. I know it is their issue now not mine.

But with my new dog they have been a bit nasty & this has turned into a major neighborhood fued. Over that one mistake I made to open my mouth.

I'm sorry.

Praying for peace and resolution for you.

Congratulations on the dog! I have a labrador.

Ok, just wondering here if my responses to my neighbours have been wrong, seen as no one has wanted to reply. Not sure. I'm not feeling great. Maybe I am that religious freak. I'm not looking for pity but seriously need a way through here. Maybe I've really stuffed up. But you know, I've never been told before that I'm a user. And that I am a religious freak that no one else on this earth agrees with. She said that her GP & friends & family have said for ages that we shouldn't be friends. I feel small. Who am I really?

A housemate once told me God loves you, but I don't. Maybe this is why I stay away from others. I seem to make trouble for myself. Can you see something I don't?

I'm so sorry, it sounded like I was demanding support. Thanks u for your prayers. I have found that I have many people who care about me in this situation & I'm grateful. Some of the agony involved here I need to carry on my own unfortunately. I live on my own, while my neighbours have each other. Unkind of them to speak like they have to me. But forgiveness is the only out working here. It's hard to turn the other cheek. Please help me Lord. He's the only one who knows my wicked heart & can send His peace anyway. Have mercy on me

I'm sorry this is so ongoing painful for you.

Some people do think we're religious freaks and want nothing to do with us. You can't do anything about that.

If you regularly have relationship difficulties and want to explore that, find a professional psychologist. Sometimes we just need to talk through the problems in detail and get a bit of outside perspective to see what's happening and why.

Hugs to you.