I'm Out (finally)

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Joined in 2015
March 23, 2015, 21:51

Hi All

On January 19 I posted my story here, “Male / 40’s / Professional / Married with Kids / Thinking of Coming Out / Really Scared” and I decided to give you all an update.

Here's the link to the original post if you want the background:


At that stage only my wife knew. Well, we’ve told the kids (12, 14, 18 and 21) and they’ve all reacted with the most amazing grace and kindness. I’m so proud of them. All 4 kids are pro the LGBTI community and very vocal about fairness and equity and the right to be happy, loved and accepted for who you are.

Once we told them we decided that it would be wrong to ask them to keep a secret, so we bit the bullet and told everyone within days. It was very emotionally draining. We spoke to my parents and my siblings personally, and they all reacted well. My wife told her mother and her family too, and again, they reacted well.

The next step was to tell our closest friends. And guess what? They have all reacted well too. Several of my good mates have contacted me personally and said it changes nothing. Lots of love and compassion has been shown and I am quite shocked but deeply thankful.

So far, the only negative reaction was my mother in law, who was quite angry, but said she was glad I’d been honest, and a woman from my mum’s church said she felt obligated to let her know that her dear son would go to hell unless he repented. Mum responded saying he’d been living in hell for 30 years already so it won’t be that bad if he goes there for eternity as he’s quite used to it (better the devil you know).

Anyways, things are pretty tough right now. My wife and I are both seeing amazing counsellors through the same practice and we’ve had a session all together which was very helpful. I’ve been battling with feeling ashamed and guilty and like I have let everyone down and essentially, I’ve been grieving the way anyone grieves a loss. I dreamed of growing old with my wife, side by side, loving each other deeply and intimately and now that can never happen.

I’ve moved out of the master bedroom and set myself up in the study so we each have our own space. We have both committed to making this work the best we can. Who know what the future holds but we want to work through this respectfully and with integrity and love and make sure the kids are well cared for too. We will always be a family, just a different version of it, that will likely include me moving out, and we will always be best friends as well. It’s going to be an interesting journey.

I had one really bright spot last week. I was interstate for work and ended up catching up with my best mate from high school. We’ve known each other for 32 years but lost contact about 20 years ago. And guess what? He’s gay! I was so shocked. We had the most amazing time catching up and he was so supportive and kind and understanding. What an unexpected blessing that was.

Anyways, thanks for your support. I hope this post helps others see that things can turn out well and how it shows that people are changing and becoming more accepting and supportive.



Joined in 2009
March 24, 2015, 04:19

JJ, that's fantastic news, thanks for taking the time to update us with your story!

I'm really glad your family has taken things as well as they have, and I wish you all the very best as you continue to work through things with your wife and counsellor.

Joined in 2014
March 26, 2015, 21:26

Really glad to hear that.

Joined in 2013
March 28, 2015, 22:53

Thank you for sharing your story with us. You and your story are precious. I hope that this community can support you in whatever way we can.


Joined in 2005
April 3, 2015, 09:36


Was rereading your posts this morning ( got some catchup time this weekend – which is rare for me )

This time – this section " and a woman from my mum’s church said she felt obligated to let her know that her dear son would go to hell unless he repented. Mum responded saying he’d been living in hell for 30 years already so it won’t be that bad if he goes there for eternity as he’s quite used to it (better the devil you know)." actually reminded me a bit of my dad. When I came out – my Dad was actually quite troubled. It took him several years to come come to grips with the fact I was gay (and Im not sure he ever really understood it) . However once he came to some sort of terms with it – he become a vociferous defender of me. The family live coastal rural area – and my father became a fervent defender of Gays in his local church.

The difference with people is once they know gay people suddenly the demonisation and the stereotyping doesnt make sense any more. You say a little further on "We will always be a family, just a different version of it" and you have hit on a truth of the LGBTIQ community there.

There is a sort of mythologising about the family that has occurred in our culture that a family is a mum and dad and kids. We know though that family is more than that. Historically mortality rates were high and a family could be just one parent or aunts and / uncles or grandparents.

Although its not so common now (although it still happens), families would disown people when they came out. So in the LGBTIQ community do have a tradition of forming our own support structures to replace family. What that has meant is that we understand that family is a very elastic term.

Indeed it always has been, its just been convenient to reinforce this nuclear family idea even though the reality is much more than that.

Family can be Mum and Dad or Two Mums or Two Dads or Two sets of Mums and Dads. I know of a family with a Mum and Dad and Two Dads. What I have observed is that it matters less what the structure is and more about how people treat each other. It is a truth that the defenders of the nuclear family fail to see sadly that a supporting, functional and respectful "Different" family (especially one based on honest) is a far better family and environment for all concerned – than an unhappy traditional family.

I have close friends who have gone down this path – and its a painful process – in part because it can feel like an ending – but I have seen it become a start of a surprising number of new stories (not invariable – but often).

Our thoughts are with you ….

Anthony Venn-Brown
Joined in 2005
April 3, 2015, 12:03

sounds good JJ.Glad to hear things are working out.

I have often found that when the process is well thought out and done respectfully all the terrible outcomes that have been imagined don't materialise……in fact quite the opposite.

all the best

Joined in 2009
April 5, 2015, 23:56

So pleased JJ!!!!

I, sure that life won't be without its moments – but life will get better!


ps. My son came out to me recently 🙂 that was so nice!

Youth Coordinator
Joined in 2014
April 20, 2015, 17:41


First of all i wanna say a big congratulations on your coming out!! Its such a big thing to come to terms with! And Im so happy about the overall result of how your close friends and parents reacted! I can definitely relate to your coming out because i also had a reasonably good outcome myself!!

Hope now you can live life to the absolute fullest and you can then find happiness!!

God bless you mate 🙂


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