I think its good, youre being honest without being rude, Im sure the guys will have some input. Its sad the church thinks we need to be exorcised or arent believing enough, thats just ignorance(sometimes chosen and sometimes just naivity) and a mix of self-righteousness talking but even so can be quite damaging sadly.

In a way I guess if someone was switched on enough, Jesus and the Apostles just cast anything out with a word or two or after some prayer, so if nothing happens, shouldnt one think “hey maybe it isnt demonic?” also their are few instances recorded where that was actually needed.

This demonising of everything and everyone so over abundantly reminds me of a story a Pastor once told, he was asleep in his motel room and woke up to find a dark, ugly looking thing staring at him in the corner of the room, broad shouldered and little 😈 , he asked his wife to get rid of it but she said “for goodness sake 🙄 you do it”, so he kept telling it to go in Jesus name but nothing, then he prayed and cast it and nothing, then he asked God if it was him having little or no faith and tried again and nothing, so about an hour later or so (yes amazing) he decided he would fall asleep after a prayer of protection.

Morning came, he opens his eyes and in the semi dawn light he sees the thing next to him 😯 , he lets out a yelp and his wife standing there with his “raincoat” says ” so was thisssss your boogey man?” 🙄 🙄 😆 True story.(maybe some details scanty 😳 )

Ignorance or not looking into something properly can make us make bad decisions, do or say crazy and sadly harmful things at times.

LOL yes we can, I think from memory, I tried to exorcise a shadow of a tree in my room as a baby christian yrs ago 😳 doh! 😆

ive not attended for over three years now, but i kept getting mail from them talking about all the major decisions the church was making and my vote was wanted apparently and stuff like that, so it just made sense to close the door on that chapter of my life. I havent heard anything from them since i sent my letter, to be honest, im not expecting to.

thanks gettingthere. well ive posted the letter and i havent heard anything back so i guess they dont want to discuss the contents of my letter, im not surprised to be honest

I just finished reading your story on here as well, i have to say i was shocked to read you were only sixteen, very wise writing for someone so young. God clearly has a plan for your life, with writing like that!

To answer ur question on how am i doing now? well slowly but surely im gettingthere, like urself. I love being gay, i love being out and proud, but i hate being single. Meeting genuine honest and caring gay men in scotland is like finding a needle in a haystack. and the gay christian scene is non-existent, so it sucks that i cant attend the meetings that some of the guys in Oz attend, they sound great and a real source of encouragement and support.

Anyway, enough of that, hope you are doing well, guess its kind of rough being gay at a christian school, i went to a catholic secondary so it was kind of similar.

thanks gettingthere. well ive posted the letter and i havent heard anything back so i guess they dont want to discuss the contents of my letter, im not surprised to be honest

I just finished reading your story on here as well, i have to say i was shocked to read you were only sixteen, very wise writing for someone so young. God clearly has a plan for your life, with writing like that!

To answer ur question on how am i doing now? well slowly but surely im gettingthere, like urself. I love being gay, i love being out and proud, but i hate being single. Meeting genuine honest and caring gay men in scotland is like finding a needle in a haystack. and the gay christian scene is non-existent, so it sucks that i cant attend the meetings that some of the guys in Oz attend, they sound great and a real source of encouragement and support.

Anyway, enough of that, hope you are doing well, guess its kind of rough being gay at a christian school, i went to a catholic secondary so it was kind of similar.

Thanks for the compliments. 🙂 I don’t want to hijack your thread by talking about myself, but I do have some replies in regards to my personal life that I would like to put somewhere else. My own thread – I’ll do it there.

Back to you though. I’m so glad to hear that you are getting closure and that you have accepted yourself. Your situation sounds kind of difficult and in some aspects I can relate. I too feel very isolated where I am. When I hear about places like F2b, I wish so badly there were places like that here. As hard as it must be to be single and not want to be, I would encourage you to keep waiting for someone who is good for you, as you seem to be doing already. It’s better to be single and have your life in order than to be with someone who makes your life a mess. And I’m sure that somewhere out there is a great guy you could be with. So often we think we are alone, but I think that’s mostly because we are so quiet about the way we feel. Almost certainly there is a guy in Scotland who has been going through something similar to you; he’s probably wondering why he’s so alone just like you are right now. If wonderful people showed up at our doorstep everyday, we’d never treasure them as we should. Just stay true to yourself and stay true to your standards. It’ll be worth it in the end.

Encouragement and support – goodness, I wish I had more of that here. I have support, but most of my supporters are people I’ve never met personally. I have a few friends who are supportive. I think there is more to being supportive than saying ‘that’s okay’. I can say it’s okay for somebody to lift weights, but that doesn’t mean I’m supporting him. Supporting that person would mean I get beside him and help to lift his weights as well. That is what true support is and I’ve had some friends who’ve supported me and it’s not always with gay issues. I think it’s important to remember that we have issues beyond being gay that also need to be dealt with and we need support with those things as well. But I have had some wonderful support. I wish I had more, but you know, I’m choosing to be satisfied with what I have been given. I don’t think many Christians could ever understand how being gay has strengthened my faith in ways that very few things can. After going through all that garbage I went through, I’m so convinced that God loves me and that really helps me get through the times when I don’t feel supported by others. I hope you too are at a place like that. 🙂

Anyway, sorry for writing so much. I’m a writer and I write long replies to things. It’s just my nature. Keep posting though; I’d love to hear more from you.