William's Life So Far.

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Joined in 2005
June 26, 2007, 13:33

Hi Everyone,

My name is William. I came out when I was 27. I am now almost 35. The last eight years have been an interesting time in my life and not necessarily happy ones. I have spent most of my life in Brisbane, Australia and have been living in Sydney for the last three years.

I have battled depression since my twenties, probably even as far back as my teens. I was not happy at high school. Most of my twenties, I wanted to die.

When I was 27, and was finally getting counselling, the nature of my sexuality became evident.

In my high school years, I had gone to a very conservative Wesleyan Methodist church. The whole don’t drink/dance and don’t listen to secular rock’n’roll was very widely taught by our very conservative minister. I literally believed that rock’n’roll was of the devil. To protect one’s virginity was also very widely pushed. The effect of this on me, as a teenager was to bury my sexuality, not listen to rock and in general not be able to relate to other youth. I very much became a loner at school and church.

Of course, I did have some good times at school and that Wesleyan Church but in the end, in my twenties, I came out very burnt and dejected.

My late teens and twenties, consisted of attempts to study, work, unemployment, and feeling totally gutted about life and having no idea about what I really wanted.

I came to the day I wanted to commit suicide but called my best friend and my mum, and just cried over the phone to them.

Three years ago, I moved to Sydney. There were many reasons for this. I live at Fairlight next to Manly. I do not have any close gay friends. I go to church at Fairlight where overall I am accepted for being who I am. I am openly gay at church and at work.

I do still battle depression. I was getting some counselling up until recently, until I started full time work.

I am more at terms with my sexuality. In fact I am feel like a 15 year old teenager who thinks naughty things about every cute guy I see at the moment.

I guess, I want prayer for my future. I think I would like to do something with music. I play guitar and bass. I have just started bass lessons. I also think about acting, but I will wait a bit about that. One thing at a time.

I would like some REAL friends. Gay and straight. I would like to meet the right guy one day. I would like to live in England. I would like a family one day, with a husband though! and not a wife. He hee.

Just a lil message from me.

William Taylor.

Joined in 2006
June 26, 2007, 15:51

Hey Wilzy30, welcome to Freedom2b, thankyou for sharing your story )

Its great to hear that your church accepts your orientation.

Freedom2b has meetings the first friday of every month in the city, you are more than welcome to come along and meet some of the guys. Afterwards its usually a meal and chit chat in a great cafe. wink For more info on where we meet, if you go to the “whats on” section of this site you will find more details.

Joined in 2005
June 26, 2007, 16:51

Thanks Magsdee

Joined in 2006
June 26, 2007, 17:53

Youre most welcome Wilz30 wink So good to hear that you are in a good place in yourself now. D

Joined in 2007
July 23, 2007, 21:22

Hi Willz30,

It was very touching to read your story. Mate, you must be a pretty amazing guy. Like so many of us, you have had a journey of discovery. I could so understand your story – I found so many parallels in your story with my own. And I am 36 right now myself, so we are not that different in age.

I really hope your journey is onward and upward, as I will be praying for you. And, to use the words of a famous scifi quote, “You are not alone”.

So many of us here are hearing & understanding you.



Joined in 2007
July 24, 2007, 00:39

Hi Wilz and thanks for sharing your story with us. Glad you could join us here on free2b!



Anthony Venn-Brown
Joined in 2005
July 26, 2007, 00:10

hey william…..jsut a quick hi to say welcome to the forum……hoep we hear more from you…..and thanks for sharing your story……can you see the common themes

Joined in 2006
September 8, 2007, 15:37

g’day m8. thanks for sharing from the heart. great that you found an accepting and affirming church to fellowship in. is it charismatic?


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