Ditte, I am not only afraid of going to hell but of grieving God – I don’t want to dishonour God. I want Him to be my Lord. I don’t want to stuff up my one opportunity to live this life for Him.

I like your starting place … I think I will pray the same prayer.

Take care! 🙂

Thats good! That your not afraid for your salvation.. I know what you mean – we only have one life and when we have meet Gods love, its very sad to feel that we dont honour him with all that we have. I KNOW that God love the fact that we want to live holy lives but we dont know how! Because this shows that we are not arrogant but we are humble.. As long as we ask ?, as long there will be hope.

Even when we dont know the answer or what to pray, Jesus is the answer.

God bless you!

you might be interested to know that i’m thinking of tackling the issue of relationships at our next Sydney F2B meeting friday week….particularly if the relationship is with someone from a non-church background. Like the issue of morality and sexual ethics for gay christians I spoke about recently this is new ground. I’d like some feedback as to areas for discussion….

That sounds like a great topic. Yeah the issue of same-sex believers and non-believers in a relationship would be interesting to discuss and I’m sure there would be some excellent ideas from everyone. I think that it’s important that each person respect each others beliefs and values, and not try and convert them to your way of thinking etc. Rather be a testimony to your beliefs and always seek to find the good in everything.

Just my thoughts 😉

BTW….ditte….I didn’t talk to God for 5 years after I left the ministry…..we were not on speaking terms. Some people wait longer. Of course our lack of communication has nothing to do with the way he feels about me.

Why didnt you talk to him?

I was really really really pissed off. why should I talk to a God who never answered the prayer i cried everyday…..take these feelings away, make me heterosexual . He answered lots of other prayers and I would have traded all those for just that one……and because he didn’t answer that prayer my life became a nightmare, I lost everything and hurt the people I loved most in the world. THANKS GOD VERY MUCH YOU ARE A BASTARD. 😡

I felt deeply betrayed.

I realise now of course i was praying the wrong prayer. Asking God to change my sexual orientation was like asking God to change me from being left handed to right handed. My ignorance and the ignorance of those around sent me down the wrong path.

I think those two guidelines sum up a lot Magz 😉

Sending strength and healing your way.

AVB – the Sydney F2b meeting topic this week sounds really good and I’m so disappointed I won’t be there to share it – we should hook up a video/web link or something. Maybe I’ll book a flight for June 🙂

On the unequally yoked topic tho, I’d really love some insight around the age gap thing some time. It can be a bit of a relationship-drought as a gay Christian and it’s maybe too easy to justify a sizeable age gap and overlook the obvious imbalances…