I have never stopped thinking about God nor believing, mind you I must say my theology has changed somewhat with more open ended questions in my vocabulary than my once upon a time dogmatic yes and no answers for all things. ( a typical pentecostal bible college framework of thought) I still pray and very often experience prophetic insights into people’s situations on whatever scale, the same as when I was in full time ministry. That has never stopped, even when I wanted it to.
I did not know what the theme of the service was today, as I have never been there before
and as it happens
I ran into a couple of old time friends i use to be in ministry with together many years ago (one of whom knows I am gay) plus a young person I was teaching recently. (She does not know I am gay)
All in all the experience this morning was very nice I have to say.
Ofcoarse it was only my first time there. (tongue in cheek)
But I was thinking during the service that it is not necessary for me or anyone to agree with absolutely everything preached or discussed in the walls of the church for me to enjoy it or be apart of it. (i use to be of the mindset that I needed to, when I was in ministry, due to the fact i had leadership that only wanted “Yes” men on his team)
If they have a negative approach towards the GLBTI community then so be it.
I miss church, I miss the positive aspects of it, especially if the church has a strong focus to just simply loving people instead of trying to clone them to be the same as the leadership (which is extrememly common in pentecostal churches)
which by first impressions this morning this church does have.
i miss being around a group of people that are not all about themselves, that actually do believe in loving people for who they are, not what they should be or how much money they will give to the church or whatever.
So perhaps next time I am in Brisbane visiting my bf I might test the waters and go along again.
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