Hello Everyone,
Im sorry for being a bit silent, there's been quite a bit going on, on my side… So this is what exactly happened when I came out to my parents…
I gave the letter to my dad and told him that I wrote something I felt like telling them and that I wanted them to read it. He immediately asked me if this will make them sad. I responded saying that I hope not.. 😉
That night we went to sleep ( I couldnt sleep much cause I was super nervous ) and that night they had read the letter and in the morning dad sent me a text saying that we will discuss everything in the night.
When he came back Mum dad n I had a conversation about the whole letter. Dad said at first that this is not new to him and that I neednt write essays to him to tell him about it, he also said that he believes that this is a psychological matter and that I should remain open minded about it and not label my self as yet.. he also said that he will be open minded about it and that we will continue to talk and read about this matter and that at the end if I am gay he would still be proud of who I was cause his two sons were the world to him…
In the coming days mum and dad treated me like they normally treated me nothing was different. It was so awesome.. 🙂
Then last sunday we went to a psychiatrist cause dad felt that this was a matter that needed to be handled professionally. When we went the psychiatrist told us that we've handled it quite well and that at the end of the day that I should choose the path that makes me happy and that I shouldnt let this make me neglect other things in my life and that the answer will dawn on me…. 🙂
Today i watched "Prayers for bobby" with my parents and we had another long conversation. I explained to dad that this is not just psychological and that I really dont see that change is possible.. i shared many things from my past and mum n dad shared alot too… At the end mum told me that what ever it is to feel free to come and let them know.. that communication is so important…
The bad part of the story is that my best friend has now taken the stand that he is not going to accept this and that he is standing firm on the grounds that homosexuality is a sin.. I went to meet his spiritual mentors and had a conversation since I was actually wondering what they had to say and was wondering if change was actually possible (since my dad asked me to be open minded to things ). After I spoke to the pastor he prayed for me.. I felt so wonderful but when I came home I felt a big block between me and God… I couldnt pray for days.. I didnt knw wht to do until we went to the psychiatrist and he told me the things ive said above.. I told myself that I wouldnt let anything come between my relationship with God.. So I told God that im gonna accept this and continue to live for His glory. I feel so much peace now… I've not broken this news to my best friend but when I do i knw its not gonna be nice…
I wanna thank all of you who prayed, and helped me out in this whole situation and would ask for your continual prayers on my life…
Lots of love,
God Bless you guys
Amila
P.S I couldnt do a youtube vid cause my best friend would see it and then his mentors and things could get nasty.. sorry.. 🙁
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