My name is leece johnson

I now live in Adelaide south australia.

I was born and spent all my life in western Australia.

I was a transsexual and now suppose to be legally female.

Most things I have done in my life have not turned out right.

Except when I had sex reassignment surgery

The operation was the best thing I ever did.

What I have now between my legs looks and works the same as a women born with her body parts on the out side.

Of course we can not get pregnant. I don’t think I could handle the pain of having a baby.

We know most times from as far back as we can remember that we are in the wrong body and we don’t know why . in my case been brought up as a boy (yuck hehehe) and been told and having to learn to do boys stuff.

All I wanted was to do girls stuff but you learn to hide those girl feelings as much as possible .

Fighting back the female feelings puts extreme pressure on your mind the older you get the stronger the pressure .

suicidal thoughts can become very strong.

We try to live to societies expectations and get married have children as we know the world back in the 60s and 70s would not except us.

if society excepted us when we were young and we knew that we would not have got married or had children and there would have been no wife threatening to tell the world that we are a freak we must be possessed by the devil and that we will never see our kids again.

friends family disown us and most times we loose our job.

The world is totally against us yet we have no choice we must move on and head towards living and having sex reassignment surgery so we can be our true selves.

The one we should have been born as or we suicide and in the world 50% will.

in the state I live in in Australia the suicide rate is 80% . we have wasted many yrs of our lives hiding 20 to 50 yrs.

a lot of transsexuals can never afford surgery so have to live with that yucky thing between there legs.

For us that are able to have surgery, we think that after surgery we will find love and happiness and work and every thing else we ever wanted.

That’s totally wrong .

You will be lucky to find work unless you pass very well or you are a persistent bitch like me.

I am still working in a male type job driving trucks or what we call road trains (3 trailers)

I am the 1st road train or truck driver to stay in trucks after surgery in Australia so yes I had to fight very hard to get work and to be excepted. I now work for the highest paying company in Australia.

Happiness well yes I have a lot of lesbian friends and straight friends male and female.

There is one thing I am missing and it’s the one thing that is the hardest to except and 95% of us will never experience it .

That is love .

Ok most of us want to be with guys .(yuck)

There are some like this black duck that are lesbians but because we still have a lot of male body shape you have no chance.some lesbians want you as a friend but there’s no way they would ever want you as a partner.

That’s the bit that really hurts.

I understand why lesbians don’t but it is still extremely hard for me to except .

Every body needs love.

We are very miss understood by people who think we are going through some sort of wild fantasy . why would we go through so many tears pain from surgery and humiliation from every one loose family and friends and spend a min of $40,000 total if it was some sort of fantasy.

We had this cruel joke played on us when we were born and we spend our whole life fighting it.

A lot of us transsexuals will go though life holding a grudge against the world .

To me that’s not going to get us any wear.

http://www.looking-glass.greenend.org.uk/help.htm

http://www.tsroadmap.com/

above is a little bit of light bed time reading. Hehehe.

You will see how much there is for us to do before surgery .

After surgery if there was a web site it would be 10 times as big.

Churches well I went to church as a teenager but I knew they would not except me.

For yrs I went to a spiritual church some were excepting most were not.

I have a lesbian friend that was a church minister . churches can be cruel places some times.

Well I better finish it off now before I write a book .

I hope you all have a happy and wonderful life and find that love you need to make life complete .

Love

Leece johnson

Hi and thanks

magzdragon

suicidal rate in WA is way to high.

its the only state in australia that has notlaws for transsexuals that have not had surgey.

so you name it it happens to them.

few examples sacked from job for been trans . throwen out of rental propeteys .

there is no help from the equal opp comission.

Hi Mags

nice to catch up on the phone today and fine out about this very good site.

i suppose we better tell the rest that mags is one of only 2 lesbian girls that knew me before and after surgery.

mags is a wonderful person after what she has been through she is still such a positive happy women and enjoys life.

she is a insperation.

i am so glade i met her at the casino that night.

i am more than happy at any time to share what ever any one may ask.

i dont belive in hiding any thing.

i know the taxi driver you are talking about but i dont know any thing about a gland.

all i know is women have a smaller brain than guys and we are suppose to have the smaller brain to.

smaller brain means its more compact so it works better hehehehe.

sorry guys.

i do fly in fly out work from adelaide to the mid north of WA so when i am flying or at work you will here a lot lesss from me.

there is wireless internet in cue so i will apear from time to time.

i fly out tomorrow arvo from adelaide.

sorry about my spelling i know its bad.

well every one have a lovely week.

leece johnson

Hi Leece, how do you find the acceptance of transgendered ladies within the gay/lesbian community? is there problems with acceptance? ( i dont just mean this on a r/ship basis). How is the acceptance level within the population as a whole? what dilemas are faced by the ladies that you have come across on a church basis that you know of? ( i know many questions but i think good ones to ask if thats ok wink )

Thats a very sad state of circumstances if even in the gay community you are treated that way by some people. I have heard of some ladies who went to church as men and then had the change and were either kicked out or were asked to never have a r/ship with anyone, they had to be celibate. Also of some that became christian after they had had the change and were expected to do the same. It almost seems that way for those who are transexual.

they seem to face what the gays/lesbians faced maybe going back 10yrs or more in regards to lack of acceptance but sadly within the community that one wouldve expected that would accept them. Again it comes down to as Anthony has stated before about christians that are extreme in judgement against homosexuals, “do they really personally know any?” shock

I hope that F2B can give you a voice and others who wish to speak out and open up who have either been hurt by church or other means. The one thing I remember Sy Rogers touching on that I never forgot was that “silence kills”, its so important to talk or have a place that you can be heard, we have to quash the idea that we can have at times that “I am alone and there’s no one who understands or cares”. Their always is and more are coming to the open so others can find out too.