Yes Anthony…things are progressing as expected I guess. My husband and I have been talking every day.

Its nice having my sister here to stay….a welcome distraction.

Hi Rainbow Girl,

Just want to let you know I'm thinking of you and praying for you. You are doing great, you should feel very proud of yourself. You never really know how people are going to respond, so it can be a nervous time. As much as you need to do this for yourself and you want to do this, it's still doing to take it's toll on you emotionally. I think you are a wise and sensitive women who is emphatic towards others, I can tell that for you your concerns are going to be for the other members in your family. Just remember to take time out for yourself and do whatever it is that helps you, go for a walk, chat with friends etc, whatever recharges you so you are able to deal with any emotional stuff at home.

Good luck with telling your other children and siblings.

Princess _Fiona….thanks so much!! I have had heaps of doubt from my husband too…but I think he's starting to believe me. He guessed that I was interested in someone and guessed who it was. So even though its a sore point and extremely difficult for him to handle, it dispelled the doubts he had. I am feeling so many emotions, as Anthony mentioned. I know that beginning a relationship only adds more emotions to the mix, but at least they are warm fuzzies and feeling cared for, to balance out the bad ones. Thanks for your wisdom…I have taken it on board. Its all too easy to feel guilty, but I shake it off. I want to be caring and loving to my husband, but sometimes I need to distance myself from the turmoil.

Thanks for the glittery hugs…sending some back to you.

Mother Hen….thanks so much for your kind and wise words, and for the lovely sparkly note. Things have been taking their toll on me emotionally, and I've been having trouble sleeping. I got something to help and slept like a log last night. I do need to look after myself don't I? Recharge and gather strength. Having my sister here was a boost to my emotional state, as we had some laughs and fun. I appreciate your prayers for me Mother Hen…thanks. One day we will meet and I'll give you a big hug. It means so much to have support from people who care. (tears)

Ann Maree…. thanks for your encouragement. I came to realise that I don't need to convince others about who I am. They will have doubts and need to work through those, but I don't need to try and defend myself. This became apparent after a conversation with my sister about certain things which indicated to me something had always been there for me regarding attractions to women. She responded that it doesn't prove that I'm a lesbian, and she's right, it doesn't. But that wasn't the intention of my conversation. It struck me that telling people such things may cause them to think I'm trying to prove something, or convince them that I'm a lesbian. So I won't do that, at least not initially. The last thing I need is to get all tripped up in arguing about whether I have enough proof to convince them. So after that I said to her, I know who I am and what I am, and whether you believe me or not isn't the most important thing. I know time will tell. And it does give others the permission to express their doubts, or whatever, without me needing to answer or convince.

A big thank you to all. Love and hugs 🙂

Yes Anthony, that is certainly true.

I told my daughter today…and she wasn't at all surprised. She was amazing and I'm so proud of her. She was supportive and encouraging, and said she'd thought maybe I wasn't straight, many times, but dismissed the thoughts. And she wants to support her dad too.

Speaking of….we've encountered a lot of anger. But I know its normal and to be expected.

My brother's partner sent a message of love and support…and also said it wasn't really news to her either.

Isn't it funny how others can pick it even before we do? hehe

I'm going to be away in a couple of days, for about a week. My family will all know my news before Christmas.

Love and hugs to all.

Quote from Princess _Fiona on December 19, 2011, 5:54 pm

Hi Rainbow Girl

You said anger is a response, I think you were refering to your husband and you said its to be expected. All part of him processing it all and part of grieving process. Hang in there sweetie I know its not nice being on the recieving end of that anger, it can hurt and usualy does. Try as much as you can, not to take that anger and other negitive comments on board yourself. As I've said before, put it in context of the process he is going through. I watched my kids and mum go through the anger stage, there is light at the end of the tunnel, thankfully. 🙂

I know we at freedom2b are all praying for you and your family. I pray that God would use this for His good, after all who else can turn a difficult life changing experience and make it into something positive in the end for all (I say that mainly in context of your immediate family, husband and children).

Hope you are finding quiet times for JUST YOU to recharge your batteries so to speak, as you have being moving through this coming out process quickly. Well done Rainbow Girl for your brave attitude and positive approach, your doing so great and you are remaining true to who you are and that says a lot.

Well said Princes Fiona, totally agree with everything you have said.

Rainbow Girl, sounds like you have a good handle on everything. You are doing so great, I said this before you are very courageous. Remember if things get a bit too hairy you can walk out the door and go for a walk, or a drive and give each other some space.

2012 is going to be an awesome year for you.

I'm praying for you and your family.