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Anthony Venn-Brown
 
Joined in 2005
October 11, 2007, 20:17

How bizarre……but maybe not…….i was just looking at other posts and was wondering how you are…….and there suddenly a post from you appears.


Sorry to hear that you’ve been having a hard time Sandy.


it would be wonderful if the move to the new counrty also brought lots of wonderful experiences as well.


Got a lot happening at the moment so have to run but wanted to let you know I was thinking of you.


love



Sandy
 
Joined in 2007
October 11, 2007, 21:22

Thanks Anthony, funny how things happen sometimes.


I am doing fine over here in San Deigo I really can’t complain. Great job, managable degree and a whole bunch of new friends all things considered I’m very lucky.


The thing with my boss was a bit of a surprise. But then our faith and obedience are tested in times of trial to give God glory and build us up to a level of spritual maturity unreached before. It also teaches us a tough lesson in humility as we fail and keep on going.


Just out of interest has anyone had any dealings with ‘Living Hope Ministries’? they have a forum alot like this one.



magsdee
Disabled
Joined in 2006
October 12, 2007, 10:39

Great to hear that you have a great bunch of friends and things are working out. D If the path you have chosen to take has these trials and you are overcoming them, then thats good, we all have a different calling and place to be in certain aspects of our lives and if we pursue that with all our heart, God knows and gives us the strength to do it, we may not know why at the time but all gets revealed at some stage if we hang in their.

The beauty about God also is that even if we fail, all he ever said was just dust yourself off and keep going, there is no condemnation for it at all, how good is that, he isnt here to destroy us in our christian walk and always meets us where we are at and works with us and loves us at that point, whether gay, lesbian, celibate, hetero whatever………as Paul said grace upon grace and that has no judgement.


Personally I dont sense the call to celibacy and I pursue God with all my heart living that way, even if some dont agree its between me and God and he knows the intentions of my heart. God can never be boxed and its so awesome, he is sooo much bigger and understanding than we give him credit for sometimes. 8)



Anthony Venn-Brown
 
Joined in 2005
October 18, 2007, 15:23

Thanks Anthony, funny how things happen sometimes.


Just out of interest has anyone had any dealings with ‘Living Hope Ministries’? they have a forum alot like this one.


not hear of Living Hope I think…….what is their position on things eg US.



Sandy
 
Joined in 2007
October 26, 2007, 10:58

Hey Anthony,


I’m not really sure whats going on with Living Hope. They are conservative in their stance and I assume that they would disagree with many of the other views out there. Still its good to get some perspective and see what other people are saying. I quite enjoy the forum but its much larger than this one with around eighty posts a day so I can’t keep up. I rarely get a chance to argue with people though 😉



SP567
 
Joined in 2007
November 10, 2007, 19:23

Hi Nick,


My name is Robert and I’m glad you are here. I’m new to this place also. I have traveled the same path you are on just as so many others have. I think it’s true that just being a Christian can be tough many times. It also seems to me that being pentecostal or being raised in that religion is even harder. We had so many rules and do’s and don’ts that it often seemed everything a person did was a sin in some kind of way. When things are drilled into a child over and over again from birth it’s hard to break from that. My father was a pentecostal minister and so was I for that part. I just want to say that it’s hard for anyone raised in the church to break away, even if you don’t have gay issues.


Scriptural or not, we were taught that homosexuality was about the worst sin you could be guilty of. Many christians of all denominations still believe that. When I begin to have thoughts of fear along the lines you are talking about, I remind myself of just how many gay men and women there really are in this world. It actually took me years to get to the place where I see the reality of the fact that this many people did not just one day decide to be homosexual. None of us chose to become absolute outcasts from our family, church and friends, much less the abuse we have taken from society as a whole. Reading, searching and listening to others helped me become more aware of this. Getting out among other gay people and hearing what they have to say about it was also important since we pentecostals were so isolated. And now, we have the internet. You found this site because you were supposed to find it. Speak your heart and get it out.


As you seek the Lord through this, I’m sure you will find that the wonderful experience you had some years ago still belongs to you and the Holy Spirit will move upon you even today. Guilt is a terrible thing and it is one of the toughest things for gay pentecostals to get over. There are some really good discussions going on even on youtube which are helping us take another look at what we were taught and what the scriptures actually said. Jesus never said one single bad thing about you being gay. It’s important never to forget that. The Holy Ghost will teach you even now if you let him, no matter what we were told.


I feel led to say that we forget that many of our pentecostal beliefs and experiences were beautiful and special to us. We don’t want to let go of those things and we don’t have to. I loved God so much, even as a child and I only gave him up because they said I couldn’t keep him and be who and what I am. The Holy Ghost was the most precious thing I ever knew. I thought I had to give that up also. I didn’t and neither do you.


Robert



matt
 
Joined in 2007
December 31, 2007, 22:02

I lived a double life, and it just is a safety net. I used to think I was Bi-Sexual, but after leaving my AOG Faith, I found that I am more Free, when it comes to my life. It looks like now, I am Gay.


Because I felt like I had to answer to the church, when I was wrong, and all the people of church could say, is that I am Poor in Spirit. So I think it was time to stop the Payne inside my Heart.


Because it was time to live, not die in depression and harm.


So live for the day Nick, if You are Gay, be Proud Then.


Good Luck from Matt.



Anthony Venn-Brown
 
Joined in 2005
April 5, 2008, 11:25

Hey Nick……great to meet you face to face last night and finally realise who you are.


Hope you enjoyed your first F2B get together



Nick
 
Joined in 2007
April 7, 2008, 09:46

Hi Anthony


It was very nice to meet you too, on Friday and Sunday night 🙂

Next time hopefully we can have a longer chat.


Nick



Anthony Venn-Brown
 
Joined in 2005
April 7, 2008, 11:07

Hopefully next time. Good to meet the boyfriend as well.


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