Hi guys, I hope this helps too. 😀
1) Do you go to church? Why?
Yes. I love the annointing, worshipping and the teaching/preaching, I also love being with other Christians who love the Lord and love soaking in his presence also the times when I pray for others and have a word for them that hits the spot, now thats priceless. I also love being prayed for and receiving a word of encouragement.
2) Do you feel accepted at your church?
By those that know about me yes and there hasnt been a message preached at my church against homosexuality nor any prejudice against those who are. I am accepted as the person I am in the Lord coupled with my personality.
3) Did you feel that you had to do anything to achieve that acceptance? Please explain.
No. They knew me before I ever came out to them, my sexuality was irrelevant. Their was only one woman who felt odd with me but she had her own issues that she had confided to me about before she ever found out I was a lesbian.
4) What are some of the effects the church has had on your wellbeing? (pos and neg)
Positive: I became a better person and I got to know myself as a person, my life became more enriched and I found my calling in life. I got to know Jesus better and read my Bible and I now have someone bigger, Jesus, to turn to and be guided by, the Holy Spirit, when life takes its turns or throws a bad hand out and I look to God as my Father and the one I confide in about anything and everything and know he loves me and in time always brings about an answer or change for the better, usually what I needed, even if it tastes like broccoli sometimes 😆
Negative: I felt as though homosexuality was the worst of all sins and so I had something to feel ashamed and condemned about. I had to tell people my “sin” and so thus try and do whatever it took to change my ways and who I was attracted to and if I couldnt then I had failed or then this would be my cross to bare for the rest of my life, that I could never be with anyone in a faithful loving r’ship. That even if I did get married then when I couldnt be everything my husband wanted me to be or that every heterosexual woman naturally is, then thats a failing and a feeling I would have to live with for the rest of my life and the joy and happiness we are promised in God was not something meant for me.
5) Do you have a relationship with Jesus?
Yes very much so. Its the most natural thing in the world for me to talk to him through the day at any given time. He’s a surety to me as much as I know the sun will set and rise. 😀
6) Do you feel that you had a choice in being whom you are?
My orientation isnt one I just one day chose to become. It wasnt even born out of just curiosity of the same sex or from anything that has happened in my life. I could choose not to follow my orientation but it would still be there. Its not about sex, its a need to bond on a deeper level with someone of the same sex in a way a heterosexual woman yearns to bond with a man. I have had many close r’ships with women that was non-sexual so its not due to the fact that I dont have close female friends, I also have close male friends but I could never bond with them as a woman would in marriage.
7) What is your attitude to parts of the bible such as Leviticus 18: 22 and Romans 1: 26-27.
Leviticus 18:22 – This is part of the old covenant and isnt for us today anymore and besides it was for the priesthood hence the name leviticus “levi”, from what I can ascertain anyhow plus also this scripture in Heb 8:1-13 “1 Now this is the main point of the things we are saying: We have such a High Priest, who is seated at the right hand of the throne of the Majesty in the heavens, 2 a Minister of the sanctuary and of the true tabernacle which the Lord erected, and not man. 3 For every high priest is appointed to offer both gifts and sacrifices. Therefore it is necessary that this One also have something to offer. 4 For if He were on earth, He would not be a priest, since there are priests who offer the gifts according to the law; 5 who serve the copy and shadow of the heavenly things, as Moses was divinely instructed when he was about to make the tabernacle. For He said, “See that you make all things according to the pattern shown you on the mountain.” F33
6 But now He has obtained a more excellent ministry, inasmuch as He is also Mediator of a better covenant, which was established on better promises. 7 For if that first covenant had been faultless, then no place would have been sought for a second. 8 Because finding fault with them, He says: “Behold, the days are coming, says the Lord, when I will make a new covenant with the house of Israel and with the house of Judah– 9 not according to the covenant that I made with their fathers in the day when I took them by the hand to lead them out of the land of Egypt; because they did not continue in My covenant, and I disregarded them, says the Lord. 10 For this is the covenant that I will make with the house of Israel after those days, says the Lord: I will put My laws in their mind and write them on their hearts; and I will be their God, and they shall be My people. 11 None of them shall teach his neighbor, and none his brother, saying, ‘Know the Lord,’ for all shall know Me, from the least of them to the greatest of them. 12 For I will be merciful to their unrighteousness, and their sins and their lawless deeds I will remember no more.” 13 In that He says, “A new covenant,” He has made the first obsolete. Now what is becoming obsolete and growing old is ready to vanish away.”
There are other scriptures but it would be too long.
Romans 1:26-27 – Ok lets look at the preceding verses : 21 because, although they knew God, they did not glorify Him as God, nor were thankful, but became futile in their thoughts, and their foolish hearts were darkened. 22 Professing to be wise, they became fools, 23 and changed the glory of the incorruptible God into an image made like corruptible man–and birds and four-footed animals and creeping things. 24 Therefore God also gave them up to uncleanness, in the lusts of their hearts, to dishonor their bodies among themselves, 25 who exchanged the truth of God for the lie, and worshiped and served the creature rather than the Creator, who is blessed forever. Amen.
therefor God gave them over to these passions etc…Now what Paul was faced with was people worshipping a god that needed such practices. They refused to worship the true God and so worshipped in a manner that was demeaning to both themselves and to God, having sex with each other to appease that god in full on orgies based on sex. It was not out of an act of partnered love they were having sex. These were people having sex in festivals and rituals making a public connection and worship with this particular god, mostly based on superstition.
I personally have never refused to have God in my thinking and as a Born Again Christian even more so God has always been my person of worship and yet I am still same sex oriented. I am not lust driven at all, I still follow the same standards set by God for any married couple or even single person (not perfectly since no one can possibly do that) but since the church wont allow me a legitimate marriage acceptable to itself, I have made a commitment before God myself, just as they did before marriage became what it is today. Meaning once upon a time, the consenting adult person you partnered with was the one you were with for life in every way.
How important are the statements made by the 100Revs and Desmond Tutu (Supporting the GLBT Community) to you?
Very very important. It has healed years of hurt and self condemnation and the feeling that I was a second class human being and less worthy than anybody on this planet. No one likes being hated or thought of as disgusting and not worthy of recognition, its not how Jesus taught us treat anyone. It was a brave stand and relief to see it happen and finally to be seen publically as acceptable as anybody else. The apology was needed even if I had forgiven already, it just reinforced that wound healed even more. It was closure to a degree.