Hey Jannah, it was awesome meeting you and your family and Maya isssssssss gorgeous!!!!!!!!!! Hope your lovely isnt too sore with her sunburn….ouch!!!!!!

I may take u up on that offer to talk, I just watched “imagine me and you” with mum, she was cool about it and loved it. So will see how goes…Pathetic isnt it lmao lol fancy me buttering her up with that movie roll

Hey wheres my game of Dominoes or something online??huh?huh?

Look forward to metting u all and the awesome singing next time i go to mcc…….Tres Cool!!! moi?? well “merci” sister dude……..cheers D wink

Well, an interesting turn of events has taken place. I was at my church last nite for a meeting and the way the meeting was going just didnt sit right……..it was quite new agey (wont go into details)…….i felt like i was in some sort of trance and went home feeling the same way and waking up in the middle of the nite feeling ill and very stressed. usually after a Holy Ghost meeting I feel uplifted and at peace and just sense the annointing, but this was not that, I have been involved with the new age and some occultic things before in the past and the spirit behind last nites meeting felt like it used to when i did that stuff…………..So i decided to not go back again until that kind of thing changes. They r relatively new to the moving of the spirit and being familiar with all that I recognised something not quite right in there, it was a mixture of truth and error.

Anyhow its a good church but not where its at right now………also i just sensed the lord releasing me from there and i am sooooooo at peace about it. A pressure just lifted off. I will find another church in the meantime so its all good.

I still havent told Mum yet that Im gay, since its her Birthday and didnt want to announce “Happy B’Day Mum and by the way, Im a lesbian!!! Ok now thats all clear, lets cut the cake”!!!!!!” lol wink

Well, small update….my sister outed me to Mum in not so many words, so thanks sis roll I have a few friends but none to hang with so thats a real pain, I always get people either wayyy over 60 or people just wanting to get me out and then not hear for mths at a time. Lately, I make friends with some and then they see I cant walk well as yet, then Im history……What a dbl blessing, gay and get rejected and in a chair and get rejected, sounds like a self-pity trip, its not, just offloading. As positive as I can be there are some very “real” realities I face everyday, God knows I try and turn every neg. into a positive, just tired of traveling alone. Am battling the words of my ex. which seem to be proving true. cry Sure internet chat can be fun but personal contact is soooo important……….Anyhow as I said offloading…….I need some prayer for things to change so I have friends I can see and call and go out with. Its getting too lonely. God never created humans to be islands.

well, funny enough everyone else in the family knew bar mum, although im sure she kindve had a feeling. But nothing has changed except she stares at my computer every time she comes past my bedroom to see what is on my screen lol usually it will be f2b or yahoo messenger LOL

I felt better after offloading, I can get on with it again, I think every now and then you just have to let it out. I know i couldve spoken to someone about it but didnt want to fuss anyone over it wink I do have people i know who i treasure greatly around me. it was just one of those things i guess oops

I dont work and dont study and so people contact for me is once or twice a week at church, so i feel the pinch a little more than normal. BUT when i start gym next week that will change i know………in hindsite i always think “gees what a moaner” of myself, yet if someone else offloaded like that they would have my full attention and compassion, funny how we are soooo hard on ourselves roll

Im HUMAN?????????? Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol wink

In all Honesty, I needed to hear that piece of encouragement Anthony, It was building to hear that I have an “upbeat” positive attitude *hugs* and xxx D Thankyou!