Hey sarab…

You continue to make astounding progress on your journey of self acceptance and identity. So glad your sister and her partner have been supportive and normalising.

Hugs that the black dog is hounding you…. trust you have good supports…

Take care, as winter sets in, and stay well.

ammi xx

Oh Sarab — I am so very pleased for you!!! That is exciting and great news and she sounds wonderful…

Please let us know how things go.

cyberhugs and joy for you!

ammi

Thanks so much Ammi and Mother Hen. It would now seem that I am officially "seeing" this lovely quirky woman I have met. She is very unusual – but there you go – we seem to just "get" each other. I never thought I would be able to care for, be intimate with or have a partner – but I am confident – strange as it sounds so early on in the piece, that we will have a good red hot go at it 🙂

I truly am so thankful to all those at f2be who have continued to encourage and support me. Notably Ann Maree, Ammi and Mother Hen. Your support, wise words, encouragement has made it possible for me to get to the space I am in today.

I will keep you posted as to how things go.

Sarab xx

Hi all,

yes – still seeing the woman I have met online. It's an interesting journey. I have had a couple of little wobbles in my own head as I deal with some of the potential challenges of us being together – she's non censoring and calls a spade a spade – I am more restrained and contained. She sometimes does not "read" the world in the same way others might – so it will take some gentle understanding at times on both our parts (and those around us) to get that right. I have also had to reframe my thinking a bit around what it means to "be in a relationship" – we haven't quite used the R word yet, but I guess we are heading in that direction. I feel a bit shy about being thought of by friends as being with someone – I think this would be the same even if it was a straight relationship. Having successfully skirted around intimacy my whole life, it feels like wearing a new pair of shoes at the moment – a little uncomfortable. She does present as being a bit unusual at times – but I see the person within – and so I am tentatively moving forward into whatever this may be. I hasten to add – I am not exactly mainstream sometimes myself! 🙂

She is a mixture of feisty independence and beautiful sensitivity. Despite difficulties at times with processing information and cues, she is also very intuitive and perceptive. We both love words and writing, we both like music, we can talk about all sorts of things – politics, human nature, work, music, ideas, beliefs, food, family….. We are also very attracted to each other.

So still early days – and whereas I have described myself to her as a "processor" – she would say ' "just jump in, there are no guarantees in life…but it may be worth the risk". I have a few friends to talk things through with to help me gain some clarity – but at this stage – I'm jumping in and it feels really lovely.

Sarab 🙂

You have a beautiful way with words Sarab 🙂

Exciting times ahead mixed with some apprehension, which I think is very normal moving into a new relationship. All relationships have their challenges at times. We are all individuals and even though it sounds like you have lots in common and share similar interests. You also have many differences that will make your relationship exciting and wonderful.

It brings a smile to my face and warms my heart when I think back on the women who first posted on the F2B site. Wow you have come so far, I hope you can look back and see how far you have come, you should be so proud of yourself, I'm proud of you 🙂 You deserve to be loved and love someone special, to have that special person to share life precious moments with. I'm sending you a big hug 🙂

You are right, there are no guarantees in life, you can weigh up all the pros, cons, risks, rewards etc but at some point you need to act and as you are doing "jump right in" you go girl 🙂