Unfortunately there are no real solid answers to some things but at least about Jesus yes there is and what he did and freed us from.

Hey you whats been happening for you over yonder? 8)

forgive me Sandy…..you have more replies than Maggie

Hi Sandy

Wow!! You really are an amazing woman!

It’ll take me a while to fathom the depths of your forgiveness but I will try. This is a very powerful message, not least because forgiveness is not one of my strong suits. I guess I get attached to my passions and rights. And yet what you, Anthony and Magzdee said is right – God has forgiven us of so many things and when we really reflect on that in its fullness, the natural state or outcome for us to then flow in is forgiveness. You’ve made me see that. Thank you. (Now I just have to learn to apply it! 😕 )

It’s interesting that I’m reading this now. I was chatting recently to my ex husband and marvelling at how he forgave his uncle (a pastor) and church leaders for the spiritual abuse they inflicted on us and others. He said a similar thing to what you have all said, that God has been so kind and good to him that he couldn’t think of doing anything else but forgive. It was expressed so gently and unassumedly and yet I was struck by the power of it! Like a river washing all my arguments and ideas away until no words or obstructions were left. There are no words for that sort of thing, it’s just pure power.

On another note, how are you going in yourself since those traumas? (And I apologise if you’ve answered this elsewhere and I’ve missed it).

Thank you so much for sharing your story, Sandy. You are really inspiring. 😀

Ann Maree

Hey, thanks for your responces. I’ve re-written this post like five times already and it’s made me realise that I’m just not ready to write it. My relationship with God is fragile right now and when I look back at that person who, with God’s strength, forgave I can barely see myself.

On another note, how are you going in yourself since those traumas?

Hmm good question. When I woke up in that hospital initially I couldn’t remember a thing because of the head trauma. The temporary amnesia wore off after a few hours. However the doctors say that when a person suffers from a traumatic event, esepically one involving prolonged physical assult the brain often diassociates itself from the event as a coping mechanism. You’d find this with someone who was assulted on a regular basis, say in a domestic violence situation, eventually the brain just disengages from the reality and they no longer feel the pain etc.

This occured for me too though it is rare. I remember what happened but it’s almost as if it happened to someone else or was a really vivid dream. My unconcious is still trying to work it out, I have nightmares and flinch involuntarily when someone touches me unexpectedly but the whole thing wasn’t very emotional for me. I knew what I was supposed to feel and to an extent I did feel those things but they were empathic responces. Like when we saw the towers fall on September 11 and we all felt sick and horrified. So anyway that’s where I’m at…probably not what you expected but it does explain why I was able to do things like see David months after the event and not crumble into a million peices. I’m not any stronger or better than anyone else. In a way I’m just luckier.