Thanks for the update Shan. Great to hear the progress you are making. 😀
I like how you said that when we are in the closet, our own issues are all we can see. I remember a time when the “darkness” and fear inside the closet was all consuming, but when the light comes on in our minds, the darkness goes. And as Ann Marie said, the internal conflict issues become less and less as we grow in our understanding.
I really feel for those still in the closet who may be reading this. Those who feel they have no hope. Because there is hope. No matter how bad it seems at the time, it will get better. Its always darkest before the dawn, but the dawn is coming.
I look back at the changes in my own heart and outlook over the past few years and am just amazed at how far I have come from hating and being afraid of my sexuality to now loving and celebrating life and who I am in Christ as a gay guy. It doesn’t happen all it once, but as we connect with others who have been through similar things and come out to more and more people who matter in our lives, shifts take place in our thinking and we find ourselves becoming more and more whole.
I think coming out helps with the internal conflict issues because when we actually speak the truth about our sexuality in a positive way, perhaps for the first time in our lives, and hear ourselves speak that truth from our heart to others, it resonates from our heart throughout our entire being, and begins to heal and restore us mentally and emotionally from all the years of psychological and emotional abuse we inflicted on ourselves or were subjected to.
Bless you Shan. There may be a few bumps along the way, but you are growing stronger day be day. I am sure you will look back in a year or two and be amazed.
Timothy
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